Mater Dolorosa

[section=Disclaimers & Notes]Disclaimers: Yuugiou is the property of Takahashi Kazuki.  I obviously do not own it since I’m not having money.
Dedications: To Katsuko, for enjoying the story, despite the sap.
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Yami-mine never sleeps well.  Even when I can feel he’s asleep in his soul room, (not that he’s ever allowed me in there, of course, but the walls aren’t that thick between our rooms) I can still feel it.  He’d never, ever admit to it, especially not to me, but whatever he sees then bothers him.  I mean, it bothers him a lot.  But he’s not talking about it; he’s not confiding in me, as much as I wish he would.

Yes, I know he’s the yami and I’m the hikari and he’s supposed to protect me, but I want to protect him from whatever it is that won’t let him sleep peacefully whenever he actually manages to go to sleep; sometimes, that is scarily rare.  Those are the times I try to draw him into my soul room where maybe he can rest, even a little bit, even if it’s only catnaps caught because he drifts off when we’re talking.  Yami-mine isn’t exactly one for protracted conversations.  He tries, but it doesn’t work; he goes out like a light.

I guess it’s good for him, though.  I mean, this way at least he gets some sleep.  I can’t touch him, even in the worst of his nightmares, or even look at him for long, but at least he gets some decent sleep.  More than I can say for in his own soul room.  And yami-mine is beautiful when he’s asleep and his face is relaxed; I think I fall in love with him again every time I see him like this, as trite as it sounds.

Of course, given that this is yami-mine, I can’t go around saying that.  I mean, I don’t think he believes in love, much less that anyone – even me – could love him.  I wonder why that is.  I wonder if he’ll ever tell me.  I wonder if we’ll ever have separate bodies for it to make a difference.

There’s a lot of things I wonder about, really, but I guess there’s no use worrying on them right now.  I’ve got him the best way I can, and I’ll do everything I can to hold onto him, however he wants me, for as long as he wants me.  Brother, lover, vessel, whatever, I’ll be it; I love him enough for that.

But I do wish I knew what troubles him so much, so I could help him be rid of it.  Who knows?  Maybe when he gets his revenge on the Pharaoh, he’ll at last find some measure of peace.  I hope.  I pray.  Otherwise, I’m going to hunt down whatever’s making him unhappy and kill it a lot.  No matter what – or who – it is.

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12 April 2005
I love Tendershippy fics; they’re fun to write!  Okay, a little on this one:  I wrote it as a tie-in for “Blind Eyes”, the saga I’m writing with Katsuko.  On FFnet and MMorg, it’s posted under the joint name of “Dragons of the Moon”.

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Golden Years

[section=Disclaimers & Notes] Disclaimers: Yuugiou is the property of Takahashi Kazuki.  I obviously do not own it since I’m not having money.

Dedications: To Katsuko, for enjoying the story, despite the angst.

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There were so many horrible moments in his life that he couldn’t pick just one to be the worst.  Being sealed in his Item was certainly high on the list.  The insanity that was his first few weeks free probably was as well.  The fear his Aibou felt of him during Duelist Kingdom and the majority of the time spent on Kaiba’s Battle Ship still unsettled him.  But those were all becoming distant memories.  There were so many more recent ones.

There was the revelation his Aibou didn’t feel the same way for him as he did.  There was the moment Aibou told him who he did love.  But they all dimmed to the day they realized he and the thief weren’t getting any older, unlike their mortal counterparts, who were aging.  Oh, since Aibou looked a good deal younger than he was, they were able to pull off pretending to be brothers another ten years or so, till he was nearly thirty, before the difference became noticeable.

Yes, that realization was the worst, that he would one day lose his Aibou to a disease he would never suffer from:  death.  Even when Aibou and his lover had refused, as politely as possible, to leave Kame Games when he’d had to leave Domino or risk being discovered didn’t come close to comparing.

It didn’t seem fair.  He’d waited for – longed for – the day he’d gain his own body, so he could be with his Aibou.  That Yuugi didn’t want him that way never crossed his mind.  So he’d gone through all those trials to gain his own body and he succeeded – and Yuugi was in love with his best friend.  It wasn’t fair that he was alone now and had been for so long.  How could it be fair?  Oh, he couldn’t bring himself to be mad at the pair or anything, because they’d gone through so much to be together and were so good together, but he couldn’t help the twinge of envy he felt every so often, even now.  Life just wasn’t fair.

The RPG that had regained him his memories, in a strange way, had in turn contributed to the body he now resided in.  He’d walked through the gates, sure he was on his way to the Afterlife, when the thought came to his mind that he didn’t want to leave his Aibou – and he walked through the next set of doors, back into the room where everyone was comforting Yuugi.  He wondered sometimes what the thief’s wish had been, as he appeared through the doors only a moment after him.  No one had expected it, no more than they had expected to see the thief’s nicer half run into his arms, sobbing in relief.  It was everything he’d wanted, the love of his mortal half – and the thief had it.

How was it the thief had everything he wanted?  His other half was completely devoted to him, forsaking all others; three years after their return, when their lack of aging began to become apparent, the white-haired pair had vanished, reappearing every few years.  Their visits had slowed in frequency as of late; according to Aibou’s last letter, it had been seven years since he’d seen either of them.

Yuugi’s last letter had also nearly begged him to come back, come home.  He’d been in America at the time when he got the letter and getting a ticket had taken some time.  He was sure Aibou had never truly forgiven him for only getting there in time for Jounouchi’s funeral, but Aibou never mentioned it, never once in the two years he’d lived with them, pretending to be his great-nephew.

But here he was in the cemetery again.  There had been more people here than he’d thought Yuugi ever knew in his life.  All he could assume was they had been fans of the Game King.  The crowds had dissipated after a while, till it was just him standing before the grave.  And wasn’t it supposed to be raining?  It was always raining in the movies on days like –

“So the half-pint’s the only part of your gang still in Domino now, right?”

Only the thief could call someone of Mokuba’s stature ‘half-pint’ and not sound like a complete idiot doing it.  He turned slightly to look over his shoulder to see the white-haired demon standing there, looking strangely subdued and somber in a dark suit.  For an inane few minutes, he couldn’t help wondering if his lighter half was still dressing him.

Something must have shown on his face because the thief sent him a half-hearted glare.  “What?  I liked the midget well enough.  He was always nice to Ryou.”

So it was ‘Ryou’ now and not ‘yadonushi’?  When did that change?  Why did he care?  Why was the thief even here to begin with?  Better still, why was the thief being so damn nice to him?  There were too many questions to ask, so he made himself pick one.  “Why are you here?”

There was silent for a stretch of time, and he slowly turned his attention back to the name engraved on the stone before.  As the stillness stretched on, he glanced to the stone beside Aibou’s.  It was good they were still beside each other, he supposed.

“Ryou died last year.”  He whipped his head around to stare at the other man in shock, but the thief’s eyes were locked on the fresh-turned earth at their feet.  “Malik tried to stay as long as he could, but I guess… he missed him, so he’s gone now too.”

“I thought you bound Bakura-kun to you.”  He could have kicked himself for the words as soon as they left his mouth.  Obviously, he hadn’t, if the white-haired man was dead now.  But… why?

“Just because the priest managed it with his other half doesn’t mean we can – or that I’d do that to Ryou.  It nearly drove him nuts being away from Malik a week out of the year; I wasn’t going to make him spend the rest of his life without the little desert rat.  Not even I’m that cruel.”

Until now, he hadn’t thought it was possible to offend the thief, but apparently he’d managed it.  So this was what happened when you didn’t let your mouth consult with your brain before it took off on its own.  Still… Weirdness aside, what was the thief doing here?

“Why are you here, Bakura?”

The other’s eyes narrowed sharply.  “Going deaf?  I said Ryou and Malik are dead.  Your ‘Aibou’ and the pup are gone.  Hell, the only ones still kicking are the half-pint, Seto, and the priest, and I’m not about to spend any quality time with the issue duo.”

He was pretty sure Seth and Kaiba would take offense to the thief’s newest name for them, but really he failed to care.  He was more concerned with what it sounded like Bakura was leading up to.  “And you’d prefer to send ‘quality time’ with me?”

He made a very vague shrug.  “Let me put it to you another way, since you seem to be getting slow in your old age.”  Normally, this would be his cue to growl out something equally or more insulting, probably dealing with the fact Bakura was older than he was.  Right now, though, he was still curious and so just waited.  The thief grinned briefly and continued.  “Excluding the issue duo, who else is going to understand millennia of darkness?  Who else remembers the way life used to be?  And in a few years, who else is going to remember Ryou and Yuugi and the others?”

The bad thing was, he had a very valid point – several of them in fact, none of which he could readily dismiss.  They’d been on his mind off and on the past two years, especially in the last week since the day he’d closed the shop and gone upstairs to find his Aibou dead.  He looked – really looked – at the thief for the first time since they’d come back to life.  If he’d ever doubted Bakura cared for his other half, even as a brother, that doubt was now gone.  There was something in those eyes that told him, yes, the thief was mourning Ryou in his own way.

“And it’s better than being alone.”

Now he wondered if Bakura realized he’d spoken aloud.  There was a far-away look in his eyes.  But once again, he was right.  Even if his memories of the three thousand years imprisoned inside the Puzzle remained foggy, he still had come to hate being alone.  In the fifty years he’d been away from his Aibou, he’d done everything he could to avoid it, usually by having a roommate or two, though he’d been forced to seek more desperate measures before as well.  He’d visited the Kaibas every time they left Japan.  Hell, he had even gotten himself thrown in jail a time or two to escape being alone.  In a way, he supposed the thief had had it lucky – he had Ryou and Malik around to counter it.  But at the same time, that also meant he’d had to watch them growing older, dying, where he’d been spared most of that by being away from Yuugi.  Maybe it wasn’t such a lucky break after all.

Still… he did have a point – and it wasn’t like he couldn’t leave whenever he wanted, if Bakura got too annoying or whatever else might come up.  And he didn’t want to be alone either.  And he could be sure that, with Bakura around, he’d ever be bored; the thief was one of the few people who could consistently keep him on his toes.  And in a way, he admired the man, especially after the truth about Kuru Eruna began to come to light.  And, finally, he could think of no living soul he’d rather have watching his back.  There were probably a few other reasons, but none that he was ready to come clean on, even to himself.

Trying for the same nonchalance Bakura had affected, he replied, “Might as well.  It’s better than trying it alone.”

Bakura smirked.  “Good to hear.”  He was silent for all of a minute before grasping his hand and starting to lead him out of the cemetery.  “So, I was thinking of kidnapping the half-pint while I was in town.  You know, for old times sake.”

What had he gotten himself into?

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04 April 2005

Yay!  Finally done!  I know it’s not long, but it took forever to write.  I’m proud of it.

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Crucify

[section=Disclaimers & Notes]Disclaimers: I don’t own Yu-Gi-Oh; that belongs to its respective copyright holders, of which I am not (yet) one.  I didn’t come up with the plot kitty for this; it goes to Cheysuli on my Darkshipping ML.  Everything else is mine.  Steal and I will eat your soul for breakfast and spit out the blackened core.

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Note #1:  Based on plot bunny posted on Darkshipping ML.  Plot bunny goes: “Yami has noticed something odd about his battles with Bakura.  Each one is slightly more difficult than the last, Bakura’s plans slowly become more and more complex and subtle. His insults get louder and he cheats more often.  What will Yami do when he realizes that Bakura isn’t doing this to get the puzzle?  What will he do when he learns that Bakura had a vision and is using the battles to help Yami prepare for a future threat?”  I adapted it a little bit. ~.~  I couldn’t resist writing the angst.

Note #2:  Tentatively falls in the same universe as “Superhero”. Poor bois.  I like to torment them a lot.  To any effect, this will be another song-inspired fic, this time set to Tori Amos’ “Crucify”.[endsection]

I knew something was off when I woke up.  Gods, I knew something was wrong since that rainy night in the alley.  Bakura had always been… strange, I believe is the word… but that had been beyond the pale for even him.  And then… what happened with Kaiba… that was also so very strange.  I don’t understand it.  Not that I usually understand the way Bakura operated, but maybe I am getting a faint idea now.

I was wrong about a lot of things where Bakura was concerned, it seems.  I can see that now, admit that now.  Mostly, that was because I had been forced to sit across a gaming table from a not-Bakura for what had to have been the most difficult challenge of my life.  Everything till then had been a warm-up.

No, that wasn’t quite right.  It hadn’t been a warm-up.  Now that that I can really think about it, I can see a pattern:  each time I faced Bakura, the challenges had been greater and more difficult.  Bakura had been building me up for the final battle all along.  How long had he know about Zork?  How long had it tormented him?  How long had the beast been sealed within him?  Since our ancient times?  It had to have been.  It’s a wonder he was as sane as he was then.  Had he known he was going to lose control to the creature one day?  Was that the reason for all our fights?  To prepare me to face Zork in the world of my memories?

And I won.  What choice did I have after all?  Let that monster rule both the Memory World and the real world?  As much as I had been able to spare the concentration, I tried to find a way to save Bakura and defeat Zork.  Maybe I am as stupid as the white-haired man had often proclaimed me to be.  I never came up with a single solution, after all, and had been forced to kill – No!  “Murder” was the word.  I murdered him. – murder Bakura.

If I could spare a half a second, I would glance over at Bakura’s lighter half, or rather what was left of the boy.  There was something missing behind his eyes, and now they looked so much like Malik’s.  They were both broken, doll-like.  Ryou seemed a little better, or perhaps Malik was simply tired of trying to hide it. This is my fault as well, both due to my ignorance and my vast overconfidence.  And now I can’t think of any way to set things right with them, except this…

I lost.  It was inevitable.  I played well, I had to give Aibou that much as my final gift, but I didn’t play at my best or with my heart in the game.  A few small mistakes here and there and a big one at the finale, and my final duel is over.  It ended as it should.

The Gates of the Afterlife are opening.  The Sennen Items are falling into darkness.  It’s finally all over.  Well, Bakura, shall I proceed to the next stage of our game?  You are going to be waiting there for me, aren’t you? No one else is a proper challenge for me, so you’d best be here waiting.

I can hear the doors closing behind me, locking me in this white prison.  Around me, I can see faint images of my priests, my father, people I knew in my first life, before I had my Aibou.  Where are you, thief?  If you have let Ammut consume your heart and cast you into the land of Apophis, I’ll truly never forgive you.  You know that, don’t you?  I never said anything either of the times we were living, but… I miss you.  Duat is not…

Oh, there you are.
[section=Footer Notes]22 February 2005

Whew, finally done with the plot kitty too. I can breathe a little easier now. Now I can go enjoy my birthday instead of wanting to beat Yami Yuugi for being an angsty dork.

Sorry, it’s so short, but it was torturing me and I didn’t want to try to extend the torture any further. Forgive me?[endsection]

Superhero

[section=Disclaimers & Notes]Disclaimers: I don’t own Yuugiou.  That belongs to Takahashi Kazuki, Shonen Jump, and lots of people a lot richer than I am. This ficlet is mine though. Steal and I’ll eat your soul for breakfast and spit out the blackened core.
Warnings: Dark, character introspective, spoilers through the end of the anime.
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Note: The title comes from the song of the same title by Ani DiFranco. Lyrics can be found here.[endsection]

Welcome back.  Did you enjoy your sleep?  I know I enjoyed your sleep.  You were finally quiet, not babbling on in self-important self-righteousness.

It probably looks to all of you like I’m holding together well.  It may even look like I’m happy to be alone.  Alone… That word should have a whole new meaning for us now, shouldn’t it?  You know what it feels like, don’t you?  You’re just as alone now as I am.  How are you standing it, this silent darkness where our others used to be?

I think sometimes the silence is driving me insane, perhaps more insane than my other was or appeared to be.  I keep waiting to hear his voice (and there is silence) or his mocking laughter (and there is silence) or some new plot of his to steal the Millennium Items (and there is silence) or…  There is always silence now, and I want it to go away!  I want to scream and cry and rant at the world, you, and the gods till they give me my other back!  I can’t take the silence anymore!

I’m sorry.  Did that hurt?

I know what you and your friends have been saying about me.  You all think I’m better off alone.  You think I’m happier alone.  You think you’re the only one with this gaping hole inside you.  Well, damn you!  You’re not!  You took my other away and left me broken inside.  It’s only fitting that you should have to endure the very same torment.  Until you give me back what I’m lacking, you should have to feel the same pain.

Damn you!  And damn your other too!  There isn’t a curse strong enough for the hatred I feel for the two of you.  You should be glad he’s gone.  In whatever secret corner of the afterlife he’s hiding, he’s safe from me and the revenge I’ve been planning.  And everyone thought I learned nothing from my other.  You never even saw me coming, did you?  Not that you ever did before.  Did you expect me to just sit back and take it?  I’m not.  I won’t.  The other me never took these things lying down, and neither will I.

Damn you and your other – and your friends too!  You keep taking my other away from me.  You probably cheered as he went too.  One of your friends made me have to hunt my other’s Item during Duelist Kingdom.  Do you think I enjoyed hunting through those woods in a blind panic, trying to find where the Ring landed? Do you?!

I thought not.

That hurt too?  Really?  That was nothing.

Kaiba’s blimp?  Oh, when he protected me from your other, you mean.  You never knew the other me like I did.  You only saw the parts of him he wanted you to see till then.  You only saw what you wanted to see.  That’s still all you see.  My other always protected me, as best he knew how.  He… just didn’t always know how.

No, he never hurt me!  You thought he beat me?  Why?  What purpose would that serve?  My other never did anything without a purpose.  Any idiot should have realized that.

My arm?  Oh, in Battle City.  He did it to himself.  I never felt a thing till the duel with the other you.  So that I felt any pain was entirely your other’s fault.

What do you mean ‘was I helping him’?  Of course!  He was my other.  He helped me, so why shouldn’t I help him get his revenge against the ones who were responsible for his family’s death?  Didn’t your other tell you about Kuru Elna and the ninety-nine people sacrificed to make the Items?  We were going to get all the Millennium Items together and release all souls still imprisoned within them, even the priests.  We just weren’t counting on Zork.

And now, of course, the Millennium Items are gone, fallen into endless darkness, and probably destroyed.  Do you think those souls are free now though, or are they just wandering spirits?  Hmm, well, you’re an optimist.  I think the only souls that made it to the Underworld are those priests of your other – and of course, your other himself.

I can’t even go get my other back this time!  I’d spend days – weeks! months! whatever it takes! – in Pegasus’ damn forest looking if it meant escaping this silence.  I hate it!  I hate it!  And I hate you!  Why did you have to take him away from me?  Why couldn’t you have just destroyed Zork but left me my other?  And if you were so anxious to get rid of the other you, did you have to fix it so the other me can’t come back too?  It’s not fair!  I never asked for my other to be taken away again!  I’m still waiting in the silence to hear him say ‘yadonushi’ again!  The silence… Always the silence!

Am I going to kill you?  No, no, of course not.  It wouldn’t accomplish anything, even making me feel better.  You wouldn’t have to keep feeling the same emptiness that I do if you’re dead.  You wouldn’t get to taste that same despair I breathe in every day if you’re dead.

Besides, did you always say I’m the good one, Yuugi-kun?

:: Owari ::

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01 February 2005

Whee, it’s fun to break poor Ryou!

Seriously, this just came to me out of the blue. It’s dark and a little twisted – and if you guessed he’s torturing Yuugi while he’s saying all this, you would be correct.

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Kaiba Seto Analysis – Outline Form

I.  Projects absolute control/indifference as a mask

II.  Probably has the lowest self-esteem/sense of self-worth of cast
A. Doesn’t think he deserves Mokuba’s love
1. Pre Death-T might have been trying to prove that to Mokuba
B.  Doesn’t think he deserves any (non-material) show of affection anyone gives him
1.  Would be confused by but cherish any scrap of affection of love/friendship/affection he’s given & not expect more
a.  He’d hoard the memory of them up for when that person(s) abandons him
b.  He thinks scraps is all he deserves/has earned
(1) Doesn’t know how to ask for more
(2) Will need frequent reassurances of his worth as friend/lover/sibling
(a)  Will not act like he does or cares

III.  Likely has almost everyone in neat categories (w/ a little overlap allowed)
A. “Wants to hurt me” -> Gozaburo, Big 5 (to some extent, Noa)
B.  “Rival/competition, may try to hurt me” -> Yami Yuugi (to some extent, Otogi)
C. “Psychopath” -> Yami Bakura, Malik, Marik (maybe also Bakura Ryou)
D. “Nice to me, doesn’t want anything, needs protection” -> Mokuba (to some extent Anzu & Ryou)
E.  “Don’t like but nice to Mokuba” -> Honda
F.  “Fun to fight/play w/ but probably doesn’t like me” -> Jounouchi
G.  Yuugi only has the category “confuses the hell out of me”
1. “Why is he being nice?”
2. “Why doesn’t he seem to want anything from me?”
3. “Why does he call me ‘Kaiba-kun’?”
4. “Why does he act like two people?”
5. “What are his real motives?”
6.  Yuugi is one of the few people (besides Mokuba) he calls by their name
a.  Very odd!
b.  Definitely a lot of respect there (as much as he feels safe expressing)

IV.  Doesn’t really understand the concept of friends
A. He’s only dealt with:
1.  Abuse and abandonment from adults
a.  Death is abandonment
2.  Worship from Mokuba
3.  Wariness from his peers
a.  Age group peers
b.  Intelligence-level peers
c.  Business peers
B.  He’s never been accepted for who he is
1.  He’s had to mold himself to a role for different people
a.  Brother/mother/father for Mokuba
b. Son/heir/trainee/whipping boy for Gozaburo
c. Another mouth to feed & be rid of for people at orphanage
d.  Exploitable child genius for Big 5
e.  Untouchable World Champion for other duelists
2.  Yuugi doesn’t try to fit him to a mold
C.  May not even remember how to be “Seto”
D.  Hasn’t been just himself for himself (i.e., not for Mokuba or to keep up a facade) since his parents died or perhaps the orphanage
E.  To some extent, though, he has probably laid claim to most of the cast
1.  He may not like them all, but he’ll help them

V.  Has a great deal of issues but doesn’t deal w/ them in healthy ways
A.  Going to a shrink isn’t likely
1.  It admits there is a problem & therefore a weakness
a.  BAD!
B. He internalizes everything, puts up masks to hide behind, denial, “If I don’t admit it exists, then it doesn’t”
1.  no repression
a.  He remembers everything
(1) Forgetting makes one weak
(2)  Having memories stolen/sealed away is a high crime for him
C. Will have great difficulty getting close to anyone, physically (i.e., sex) or emotionally
1.  Partially fears letting someone close enough to hurt him or be hurt by him
2.  Will not fall into bed w/ anyone
a.  It will take some a lot of work on all parts
3. If he feels the need to bind someone to him, he might be willing to use sex to do it
a.  It’ll cause him more emotional trauma though
b.  He will resent it being the only option he was left w/
c.  He would resent it more if it was tried on him
d.  No difficulties seeing sex as a bargaining piece though
4.  Sex would either be in the dark under sheets or w/out letting partner touch or look at his body at first
a.  Gozaburo’s “training” likely left lots of scars
(1)  Note through most of the series, he’s covered from the neck down
(2)  Even if he’s had the scars removed, they’re still on his soul
(a)  Doesn’t help his self-esteem
1.  Makes him feel “less”
5.  Definitely some control issues that can go to one of two extremes:
a.  Can’t perform unless he’s completely in control
b.  Can’t perform unless he’s had control completely stripped from him
(1)  Relationship could very easily turn abusive for him
(a)  He has no concept of what a loving relationship should be like
(2)  Can very easily come to one of two conclusions based on his past
(a)  Love = worship?
(b)  Love = abuse?
(c)  He could come to the conclusion, when in love, either everything is all great all the time or someone (likely him) is bleeding
c.  He can fall between those two extremes though or move back and forth between them
d.  In either extreme, the probability of bondage/fetishes is high
(1)  Not psychologically good for him
e. He needs a sort of balancing out to keep him from slipping to either extreme
(1)  He needs a give-and-take relationship
(2)  Putting him in a threesome w/ a (well-written) yami/hikari pair would give him this balance
(a) Otherwise, he needs someone who can be both seme & uke to balance him, as well as put up with his temper & eccentricities
(b)  Putting him w/ Malik/Marik (if they are written as separate) would be bad for his psyche
1.  Bluntly, they would break him

VI.  Has built a sort of tower around/of himself
A.  Mokuba is at the top
1.  On a pedestal
B.  Tower is fragile
1. Mostly thanks to Yami Yuugi
a.  Constantly beating him
b.  Shattering his personality/”soul” during Death-T
2.  Is slowly being battered down
a.  Psyche is still very fragile
(1)  He won’t admit/show it
C.  He’s already had to rebuild his mind once (thanks to Yami Yuugi)
1.  If his mental tower falls, he’ll have to do it again
2.  Rebuilding it the first time turned him from psychotic to just suspicious
3.  Having to rebuild it again might completely break him
a. Slow changes to it are, in general, good for him though
(1) No sudden changes to what he considers a given
D.  Probably measured his self-worth by his wins
1.  Losing to Yami Yuugi hurts/damages him psychologically
2.  This is probably thanks to Gozaburo
a. “Be perfect or else”
(1)  Or else = threat to Mokuba
b.  Perfect = winning = perfect
3.  Therefore, right now, he thinks he’s worth less than nothing

VII. Doesn’t trust easily
A.  Even Mokuba!
1. Death-T
a. “Mokuba must see/learn how unworthy of his love I am.”
B.  Once his trust is gained, though, he’ll die or kill for that person, even do things he finds personally displeasurable
1.  Duelist Kingdom
a.  Willing to die to save Mokuba
2.  Battle City
a.  Teamed up w/ Yami Yuugi to save Mokuba
C.  Will be over-protective
1. Usually w/in reason (and for good reason)
a.  Kidnapping Mokuba is the Domino pastime after all
D.  Will probably be very monetarily affectionate
1.  They indicate something is nice & he buys it immediately
a.  Probably has never hear the expression “Money can’t buy love”
b.  He’d be especially giving w/ gifts if he’s hurt/angered them (or perceives himself as having done so)
(1)  Buy himself back into their good graces

VIII.  In Short/Summary
A. Everything is an uphill battle for w/ and for Kaiba
B.  Therefore, he probably thinks “If it didn’t hurt me to get it, it’s not worth having/what good is it”
1.  Gifts would confuse him
a.  He would start looking for an ulterior motive